Thursday, November 22, 2012

Thankful Thursday----Turkey Style

Happy Thanksgiving 2012!!!!! The ultimate Thankful Thursday.  So far it's been an interesting year.  Good, bad, ugly and downright depressing.  I have experienced every emotion possible this year from ecstatic joy to gut-wrenching grief.  Through it all I have always had people to turn to and help me through it, although I still have those "I am Heather, I can do it myself" moments.  I have so much to be thankful for.  More than things.  I have people.  Lots and lots of people.  Family, friends, acquaintances, even strangers who make me realize how wonderful my life is and how thankful I should be.

I won't be spending Thanksgiving with my family this year.  My boys are with their dad and I have to work tomorrow.  My family is two hours away so that is too much to do in one day to make a trip back and forth.  I will see them this weekend, and though it hurts to know they will all be in one place together I am going to a friends to spend Thanksgiving with him and his family.  **Nothing like a Holiday to meet 25 new people right?**

This year in particular, beside my parents and sisters and close friends there are two people who I am truly thankful right now.

My co-worker and friend and surrogate mother Margaret.  I love her whole family.  They have done so much for me in the last few years.  Picked up my kids, watched them when they were sick, had us over on holidays with their own family.  She is my voice of reason when I can't be with my mom to talk to her.  She is my strength when I need someone to talk to.  She has done nothing but be there for me.  She is the person I could call at 3AM and would get out of bed and come rescue me.  She is my angel and I love spending time with her and her whole family!

My other person is my friend Melissa.  I have known her for over 20 years and she is one of the strongest, bravest, most incredible women I have ever met.  A single mom , she single-handedly raised her daughter, put herself through school, worked hard and  has made an incredible life for herself by her own rules.  We have gone through periods where we haven't seen each other for years, even spoken because we are busy and live so far apart but when we do finally meet up it's like it was five minutes ago.  She has been my constant, my reassurance and has encouraged me to things I would not normally do.  I have the best adventures when we are together and she is one of the truest friends  I have ever had. I just wish she wasn't 15 hours away.

These are only a snippet of the incredible people in my life, the people who have been instrumental in making me the person I am, whether they know it or not.

I hope everyone has a wonderful day.  Eat, drink, be merry, be safe.  Tell everyone you love them today.  Don't be afraid to let bygones be bygones, don't hold grudges.  Have a beautiful wonderful Thanksgiving!!!!  


Thursday, November 1, 2012

Thankful Thursday

Oh yeah, I have a blog.  I remember now.  I was going to write a new, witty, inspirational post at least once, maybe twice a week.  It's November 1st.  My last post was September 17th.  I'd like to say I have  been oh so busy, a flurry of social activity and events that have kept me busy, but sadly no.  I'm just a lazy slacker.

So back to the post title.  Thankful Thursday.  Being it's November and in about three weeks we will be sitting around a table eating a bird and watching football, I figured I might as well start this month off with some brutal honesty about what I am truly thankful for.  Not the cute, smarmy, Hallmark, "I love my family and kids and the people who lift me up" stuff, but the God's honest truth.

So here goes nothing:

1.  My Brain.  Yes, my brain.  Yes, I know we all have one but some of us out there use it as a hat rack instead of what it was intended for, which is to think.  Using my brain allows me to expand my knowledge, allows me to have full use of my free will, and make my own decisions.  I don't freak out at the drop of a hat if I can't figure something out (usually) and can use said brain to make an informed decision about how I should proceed.  I like being smart, knowing more than I should, and keeping people on their toes.

2.  My Cynicism.  OK, so that isn't always a good thing, but over the years I have adapted a cynical outlook on the world in general,  I call it my BS filter.  I can still see the good in the world, in people, but I am also good at spotting the liars, jerks, creeps and people who are just looking to use you up and spit you out. I wish I had the sunny, everyone is happy, lets all hold hands and sing disposition that some people have but I just don't.  Call it experience, call it being jaded. I call it being smart and safe.  If you are genuinely someone that warrants my time and I want in my life you will know it, and you will see the sweet sunshiney side of me.

3. My Honest Friends.  You know who you are are the ones who keep me in check.  The ones who aren't afraid to tell me if I am doing something dumb, tell me how it really is and what I should really do.  There are no pretty pictures painted here.  No rainbows and puppy dogs.  No Cinderella stories.  We are brutally honest and blunt, and risk pissing each other off in the process but in the end,these are the women who have my back and can trust with my deepest, darkest secrets, my most random idiotic thoughts, and my sanity.

4. My Problems.  Yes, my problems.   Let's see, I'm broke, like flat busted broke.  My kids are determined to send me to the psych ward any day now, I miss my parents and family horribly and there are days when I am sure that the end of my rope burned up in my hands.  There are people at work who are hell bent on making my life miserable because they are, and I may or may not have a job in the next six months or so.  HOWEVER, being broke has forced me to get very creative, realize I don't need half the crap I have and enjoy the free things in life.  My kids make me want to be a better person every day and try my damnedest to be strong and show them how to be good, responsible people.  My feelings of helplessness have brought me back to God.  I knew there was something missing in my life, something I tried to fill with other things, and deep down I knew that I had cut out God and I needed to turn back to him.  I can't explain it, its different for everyone, and I don't feel like I am a better person because of it, I feel more complete within myself.

Thankfulness can be found from the oddest places, so instead of listing the obvious, take a look inside and think about the things in life that make you who you are.