I can't even explain it, Christmas used to be my favorite time of the year. I love Christmas songs but I cannot even listen to any on the radio. Other than being forced to in every store I frequent I have listened to none. I sing them at church but my heart isn't in it. If it weren't for my kids I wouldn't even have decorated.
I am trying really hard not to go into a store if I can help it. I have done some shopping online and I bought some items directly that someone made. I would like to have had more time to make some things, but since procrastination is one of my strong suits...that will not be happening. I don't want to spend any money....I have none which helps, but I would rather spend an entire weekend with my family, having meals and time together than buy presents and rush here and there.
I used to be that way, spending gobs of money, getting gifts for people. More than I needed to, more than I should have, but I do like buying presents for people. I just want to start doing something more meaningful that buying my kids and niece more toys that they don't really need and won't play with after about two months. Christmas is not a contest. It shouldn't be about who can spend the most money and give the most gifts.
We are doing some different things this year, just me and the boys. We are learning about who St. Nicholas was. We are concentrating more on the birth of Jesus than just Santa Claus and Elves and presents. That is another thing, it pisses me off to no end that people don't say Merry Christmas. I do. To everyone I can. I may even start saying Happy Jesus's Birthday. That should guarantee me a visit from the ACLU!!!!
Oh well, it will be over soon. Still, if I have to listen to the chick at work talk about spending $900 on their kids Christmas presents, or keep singing stupid Christmas music at work I may have to beat someone to death with a candy cane
I wish I could make ya feel it more, I understand, it's been so hard for you. But you're absolutely right to say Merry Christmas! I always have too. If it weren't for the birth of Christ we wouldn't have a single shred of the season. I'm fed up too with the hustle and bustle sometimes. Online shopping has been a saving grace for years. People get out of control and there is no excuse for it. We keep gifts pretty small, quantity wise.
ReplyDeleteI like the fresh start of a new year and I'm going to come there in January again and make it an annual new year visit! We can freeze our tushies off. Anyway, do it for your kids as you are and it'll be okay. Thinking of you. Lots of love. Christy