Thankful Thursday

Thursday is almost over so I guess I need to hurry and do this. I told myself I was going to keep this up and post more often and make people laugh and be more introspective and work on my literary skills...and I haven't. Anyway....Thankful Thursday has been a far and few between and normally I reserve this post for a person in my life but today I guess I really need to take a step back and just be thankful for things in general.

The truth is, I haven't felt very thankful lately. I have felt frazzled, and overly-emotional, and just frustrated with life itself. I can't get ahead, I can't get any sleep, I can't get organized and I can't get my kids to stop fighting. I feel like a terrible mother half the time (let's save that topic for another post). I feel like there is something I am doing wrong. But then I think, I chose this life. I chose to be a single mother, one on income, trying to raise two rowdy, crazy boys to be respectable, respectful gentleman, so I can't really complain right???? No matter how tough my life seems, I can know that I am doing it how I want it, and don't have to worry aobut being told that I am doing everything wrong. I can leave dishes in the sink if I want, I can not fold the basket of clothes at my feet until tomorrow. I can do whatever I want. This is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life, and if I screw it up I have no one to blame but me......so here is my list of Thankful things today

My boys - the heat this week - the food in my fridge - my new church and the wonderful people there -losing a tiny bit of weight this week - people who make me laugh - the cool chicks I met last week - a new book that came in the mail today - being called beautiful this week by someone who wasn't a family member -the prospect of good things to come -  and last but not least the fact that my four year old finally conked out and went to sleep.

Random Tuesday Thoughts

Its that time again.....Randomness of all sorts......yes, it's Random Thought Tuesday........hold on....

I'm pretty sure I have ADD now, I can't concentrate on anything....at all....in fact while writing this sentence I was jumping over to Pinterest laughing hysterically at really funny stuff......I blame my lack of concentration on my Smartphone....and my kids.......and the fact that I would rather be doing anything other than what I am supposed to be doing....you know besides the fact I have a million things on my mind like whether or not to uproot my children and move across the state....

I found my Twilight movie, yeah I know you didn't know it was lost...but it was and I was sad....guess what I will be watching tomorrow...

I am running Thursday......another 5K and I am hoping to improve on my last race time.....not only for personal satisfaction but also to rub it in to peoples faces who run slower than me and are mean to me/...

Sorry, just had to pull myself back away from Pinterest/Facebook

I have been on a serious 80's hair band binge recently....listening to Bon Jovi right now....

One of these days I am going to stand up and tell a couple people at work to Shut the F**k up, it's going to happen.....

Oops, just back from Pinterest

My fridge has undergone a huge transformation, there is not a speck of bad food in it.  The only thing remotely unhealthy are the Popsicles for the boys in the freezer, no more junk,  I am not letting the boys drink anymore sugary juice or pop, however their hypocrite mother still sneaks a pop from time to time.

I was in Tim Horton's today and some woman ordered a coffee with 8 creams and 10 sugars....Really?  Are you sure you wanted coffee?  I like creamer and yummy stuff but that isn't even coffee anymore

I still can't decide what to do about moving....it makes perfect sense and no sense all at once....I am afraid of making the wrong choice, I have very few reasons to stay and a million reasons to go....I feel like I have screwed up my children enough by getting divorced and don't want to do any more damage or make a complete and utter disastrous mistake......I wish someone would just tell me what to do.

I have to realize that no matter how much you need a reason why someone isn't in your life anymore, you just aren't going to get one and you have to just live with it.....you can't make people communicate or tell you why.....and it's not your fault so stop trying to figure out what you did wrong....

I wish it was as easy to break up with a girlfriend as it is a guy.  I really need to get out of some friendships that are just dragging me down.

I am in love with Instagram.......I was so sad when I lost my camera but with this little app I can make any picture I take with my phone look fantastic.....

I'm reading four books at once again.  Three fiction and one non-fiction and I guess if I read a chapter here and there of each I might be done by Fall....of course putting the phone down and staying off the puter would help

I am thankful every day that Steve Jobs created the Ipod...it has enabled me to miss several inane conversations at work.....

I need to go paint my toenails, tomorrow is flip flop day at work....you know Fun At Work....the clever ploy by our employer to trick us into thinking we are enjoying ourselves instead of realizing we should have stayed in college and gotten real jobs...

And last but not least, the last random thought in my head.....sitting here patiently waiting for someone to make a move or something because I am really not a mind reader and have no idea what's going on in their head....