Easter

Today is Easter and as most people are spending the day with their family and kids, I spent the day by myself. This is the ex's weekend so he had them all weekend. They will be home soon but it's OK. I don't feel bad for myself. I had invitations to go places and eat with people but I just wanted to do my own thing. I slept in......till 10:00!!!! I cleaned, I did laundry, I went to the Gym.

I should have gone to church but sleeping till ten put that out of the question, so I had my own little prayer session with God outside. I thanked him for all of his sacrifice for me, and every other person in this world, and for giving me the chance to be the imperfect person that I am. I asked him for the guidance to be a better mother and be more patient with my kids but still being able to show them how to be good people and be respectful and live a happy life. I asked him to please help my friends and family who are having difficult times. I sometimes feel closer to God sitting in my backyard praying than I do in a church and I hope that doest make me a bad person.

Anyway, I hope everyone had a wonderful Easter and enjoyed their day.

Thankful Thursday

After a day like today I decided to write about everything I am thankful for. I spent most of the day on the verge of hormonal tears. When I wasn't holding back the waterworks I was ready to smack someone. Near the end of the day I realized I was being hormonal and irrational and I decided to reflect on what is good in my life and is goes something like this.

I am thankful for my beautiful children and the fact that they are healthy and able to run and play and that I can kiss their little heads at night when they sleep.

I am thankful that I can provide for my children and put a roof over their head, and food in their bellies and enough Wii games for 10 kids.

I am thankful for the people in my life who reinforce the notion that I really am not a fat and ugly cow, even though I spend most of the day feeling like that.

I am thankful that my clothes continue to get looser even though the scale at Weight Watchers said I gained FOUR OUNCES today (another side effect of unfortunate hormonal state)

I am thankful that I get to stare at Robert Pattinson's beautiful face tomorrow night when I go see Water for Elephants.

I am thankful that I have brains, lots of them and that I use them. After listening to some people spew their ignorance and stupidity I am glad I know how to form cognitive thoughts and sentences. I really don't know how some people get through the day without falling in the toilet and drowning.

And lastly I am thankful for my excellent taste in music, without it I would be one of the unfortunate schmucks listening to top 40 Bubble gum, Lady Gag-me music.

Up to speed

I am not really sure why I have not been writing, guess I have been playing Bejeweled Blitz on FB too much.

Spring appears to be here finally in Michigan. No more snow please. Getting the yard cleaned up and flower beds cleaned. I have no idea what I am doing since I was never allowed to do anything with the yard in my former life, but we will see how things go. Some plants or flowers may die in the process but that's life.

My children are still not sleeping. The oldest is in bed with the youngest and the youngest is wide awake at 11PM. No amount of bribing or threats works. I have no idea how a three year old can still be awake this late but Mama needs her sleep. I still haven't found those baby tranquilizers on the Internet yet.

Operation get rid of the Apple Bottom is progressing well. I have been doing Zumba, working out at home and joined the gym for the month yesterday to see how I would do. I signed up for a 10 mile race in August so I really need to step it up. I walked it last year and my goal is to run the majority of it this year.

My oldest is going to be 10 on Sunday. I really don't know if I can deal with this because he should still be my baby. So much has happened over the last year and I feel like he lost some of his childhood because of it and I will probably beat myself up for the next ten years wondering if they will be OK but there is no turning back now. I wouldn't want to anyway. He is a good boy but really been struggling and I know he will be OK but it still hurts me to see him in any kind of anguish.

We no longer have Bella. The boys and I decided together that even though she was a lovely dog, she was not the right dog for us. Luckily we got her from someone who could take her back, get her the training she needs and find a forever home for her soon I hope because she will be a really good dog for a different family. We are now the proud owners of two crazy orange kitties. They are boys and brothers and their names are Ziggy and Bob Marley. Only I get the significance of their names. Evan knows who they are as singers but that is all. After all he is only 9 3/4.